Goodness gracious.

Enough of that!

Sorry I took over our space dear ones of mine. I know you both know we've all been through a lot of changes recently, but I don't want you to ever feel that you are less than normal, that you are missing anything, or that you must achieve some status to be worthy. I also need you to remember this: just as in the beautiful world around us, change is hard, beautiful and trans-formative.

So, here you can see how we've changed and grown- all of us. This space is about us. I want pictures of you, of these days, of our moments together. I want to document all of our blessings so that we can always share them. You two mean the world to me.

Abe, I can't believe how well you are reading. Mrs. White had a special reading group set up just for you. I'm so sorry to take you out of another school. Well, it's not that I'm sorry to take you out of school, but to have given it to you and then taken it away. I know when you look at me with those eyes that you understand. You could never possibly fathom how incredible you are. The perfect balance of mature and silly. Sweet and protective. And so damned wise. But then today, when we were playing soccer and you got upset, and hid, and cried...the way you still come to me and let me pick you up and hold you, it melts me, sweet boy. I have asked you for help when it was not your job to help. You seem to know my heart in a way that no one else does. Love you.

Ivy, sweet girl. I worry about you always. Always worrying. That I haven't read to you enough. That I'm not a girly enough mother for you. That your voice won't be heard. And I realize now, that the best thing for me to do is to not worry- because I don't have to. I needn't worry because you will, in fact, read one day. I needn't worry about not being girly enough for you, because you remind me of all the lovely feminine things about myself and how important it is to support however you feel in your body. I love that you bring this out in me and help balance my tomboyishness. I needn't worry that your voice won't be heard because the truth is, anyone who is worth paying your attention will hear you and your beautiful brilliance without any effort. You are perhaps the gentlest creature I've ever come across. Please remember this, for it is the only way you should permit yourself to be treated by anyone. Ever. Such a caring spirit, to see you with animals, my dear.. I can't wait to give you chickens, just a few more months! Love you my sweet.